The Watchers' Diaries: The Apocrypha
Note: This is the last entry in the series in all likelihood.
Not that I'm dried up or tired of the series (quite the contrary), but
given the events of S7 so far (through "Never Leave Me"), a
continuation doesn't seem feasible as the series was always intended to
be closely tied to what was happening on screen.
Entry 13 - Whispers in the Wind
writing sprawled across the page, little attention paid to neatness.
all buggered and gone to hell. You'll likely hear the story from the others
and I don't have time to tell it. I'm leaving Sunnydale tonight, you see.
Can't stay here as I am any longer.
chip won't let me be a monster and I'm not a man, no matter how hard I
try. I've been living against my nature and that's got to change. Where
it will take me, I don't know -- but I've never been a big one for looking
too far into the future.
is back, though I don't know how long she'll stay. Don't know if things
can be fixed between her and Harris now; things happened that none of
us intended and we have to live with the consequences.
know about me and Buffy; news came out unexpectedly and wasn't greeted
with resounding joy. I thought things were bad between us before; they're
worse and it's one of the reasons I've got to go.
planning on coming back, but I don't know when and I don't know how. I'm
supposed to be William the Bloody, slayer of slayers; since this chip
got shoved in my brain, I've been Spike the Pathetic. Time for me to take
back what's mine.
know if we'll ever see each other again or under what circumstances. Wanted
you to know so you don't go sending things to me via the Magic Box or
be expecting news. Wanted to thank you for being the only one out of the
whole sorry lot of them that was willing to listen.
envelope fluttered through the mail slot of the flat, coming to rest atop
the growing pile. Olivia would be stopping in tomorrow to pick up the
pile and put it away as she'd promised Giles in his brief, frantic phone
call. There it would wait until Giles' return.